Why Do I Like To Acquire Knowledge?

In the past, I had a desire behind wanting to study and learn. I like to learn a lot. I keep learning all the time. But there was a desire, there was an attachment. And that desire was to be the smartest. To be the smartest of all. But that desire made me cry all the time. I was anxious and scared. Wanting to be the smartest came in to my mind because I used to go out and meet other children a lot, in the past. Nowadays, I spend my time being at home and studying at peace. 


It is peaceful because I feel like I am studying and learning because I like to study and learn. When I used to go out and mingle with other children, I felt like I am studying because I wanted to compete with them.  Now, I think of knowledge as my friend.  Daily, I want to spend time acquiring knowledge, instead of meeting many friends. It seems so natural to acquire knowledge daily because it is so beautiful and I do not have to compete with others. Now, acquiring knowledge seems like so natural, it is divine. Yes,  knowledge is very divine and I like to acquire because it seems like the purpose of my life. 

When I watched Ramayana many months back, I asked my Amma "What is the purpose of my life?". She said, "You have to search, seek and figure it out for yourself." Today, I found out that acquiring knowledge is one of the purposes of my life. Knowledge is my friend. Knowledge is divine. 

S P. M